I’ve realized I’ve been near death for a long time, ever since I couldn’t feel my heart.
During my prayers, I allowed negative polarity to invade me, and I may have even harmed my higher self. My energy is reversed, and every moment the negative polarity makes it worse and more chaotic. So, I might end up only able to penetrate the right side of Infinite Intelligence and enter the negative polarity.
My spirit guides are constantly calling to me, urging me to follow them to the left (my right hand), but my energy on the left is blocked. I’ve tried many times, and finally felt my spirit being drained twice, a huge hole opened in the top of my head, from my left hand to my right. Now I can’t channel any energy at all. Even though the guides are anxious, I can’t keep up. I can only feel an endless pull, dragging me into an abyss.
I feel like I’m enveloped in a layer of negative polarity from left to right, and then I’ve been given many electric shocks. So, is there any kind of electroconvulsive therapy? I’ll do anything. My teachers really love me, but no matter how hard I try, I can’t make any progress. I’m just losing more and more energy and getting more and more pain.
Seek harmony. Seek love as diligently as you are now seeking separation.
Turn it around. Give yourself the love you deserve. Do it NOW. Stop wallowing in your distress. Turn to love. It is there for you and it is what you need. No one else can do this for you. Only you can face this for yourself and choose love.
Thank you. If anyone is planning to channel, could you please ask Ra to tell my teacher if my inner energy flow is being controlled by negative entities (whenever I’m sleeping/in a trance)?
