Is the universe God's oblivion?

[Oleksii]

@Dima

If I have always been, always existed, in what form then? I.e., why do I need to live my life, to be born on earth?

@Dima

And yet I don’t understand how I feel about all this, and I don’t understand my own goals, why I exist and what I REALLY NEED.

My own answer to this is that one needs to recall. So one has the goal and will have the answer. Looks like correct direction.