Starting my journey

Wanderer Stories
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Hello and greetings its nice to be here.

Please forgive me if I seem arrogant or too black and white. Its a consequence of my current incarnations experiences, one which I struggle and force away every day.

I felt the need to connect with others on this subject. Im a 40 year old technical project delivery manager who stumbled into meditation and law of one over the last couple of years.

It explained a lot. Why I can pick up anything and do it without hesitation with a skill beyond my years. Why I seem psychic especially when it comes to people.

More recently, my attempts at deep meditations where I experience what I call “the woosh” and I access the infinite.

Im not someone who previously believed in any way, shape or form any of this stuff. My job is numbers. Maths. Science. Engineering. Physical object creation. Religion Ive never had time for. The arts as a community. Literature other than science. I had time for none of it. But I would volunteer to help at risk youth get out of poverty. Always say yes to new experiences and encourage others to say yes. I was named in the top 100 influential engineers. My closing statement and I have NO idea why was “Those who wander arent lost”. This was 6-7 years ago before I even heard of any of this. So it seems fated.

I focused my efforts on work. However, something flipped on me like something was turned on, a glimpse of something else. I started exploring everything. I read everything. NDE’s, Conspiracy forums, aliens, history, art, religion, the good the bad of everything.

Somehow some way I encountered the law of one. I read it and thought… man, these guys, crazy… what insanity level garbage is this. People who have clearly gone off the deep end.

And then… I just kept hitting walls. Covid saw my work change 4 times in 2 years. I powered through but for some reason I kept seeing people being of service to self. It sickened me. The system was not aligned. Something was deeply incorrect, I seem to be attracted to those not aligned with service to others and I could not stop thinking of the law of one.

Ive since started meditating daily and started experiencing something called “the woosh”. When I meditate, sometimes I tune into something and bam, Im with it like Im standing in a river, the water flowing around me and me through it as I move. Like Im a wide scoop with holes and then, when I feel a tug I snap and focus in automatically. For example during this mornings meditation I just let go and relaxed and for some reason my partners grandmother appeared in my mind, and i focused in on it without effort and she was with me. My body “wooshed” like I fell out of it and she said hello and had a chat with me. I got a little spooked and tried to pull out but couldnt and just kept pushing and pushing to get out as it felt like I had violated some sacred boundary of contacting someone elses loved one.

The thing is - I dont know how to explain all this to my partner. And her mother.

Hey - ‘I talked to your dead grandma, she says hello, said she still loves you so deeply more than the world and wants you to ask me a questions I wouldnt know the answer to in order to prive its her.’ Just freaked me out.

Anyway theres been other stuff including summoning orbs after constant deep emotional callouts.

Sensing peoples intent and being able to instantly read through disingenuous conversations and information.

Always now saying I love you, and saying weird stuff like light, joy, etc.

This is stuff if you knew me I would NEVER ever say.

All I seem to care about is not my work anymore, but the wellbeing of everyone even people who have agendas.

Where this journey will take me - I have no idea. I feel a great sadness and sorrow when thinking of the multitude of people here in this incarnation locked into economic slavery, similar to myself.

Were all in a game and its a game where every day - those pushing the start button instantly are crippled and locked into suffering when it doesnt need to be that way.

Im hiding it all from my family and friends but it seeps through and Im just not sure how to explore this topic without losing my family and friends. I dont want them to feel like they need to walk this path with me or Ive been sucked into a cult lol. But a guy like me saying love, light, peace and joy and using positive affirmations is strange.

I’ll keep meditating and I’ll try to focus on the light. Peace and love and light and joy to all.

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My mother is a full time Catholic who refused to see anything I said to her any other way back in 2017 when I first read the Ra Material. The more I learned or went seeking for another part of the puzzle, the less I spoke to her about such things. I found common ground by asking her questions about what she is learning or what she thought of certain things. Anything that I completely disagree with I have learned to just keep my opinions to myself. She is well aware that I am studying many types of religions as well as seeking information that goes against her beliefs.

I have formed a few theories in my mind as to why she is my mother in this incarnation. For one she knows the Bible very well. She has been learning about it since she was in grade school. If there is something I can’t figure out that is related to what she is reading then I ask and she will tell me where to look or what to read. She once told me about Saint Augustine. I forgot what I was looking for at that time. If you ever read about his theological works then you may feel like you are reading parts of the Ra Material. If that man were alive today then I am sure he would be dumbfounded by the teachings of Ra.

I also formed an idea that maybe we are to help each other in ways that go beyond mother and son. I have told her about harvest and graduation. It took a few years for her to come around that maybe this is so. She has many friends that are both colorful and the type where you just facepalm all their choices. I find it hilarious when she starts talking about the gossip. She looks like a great candidate for 4th density positive. She will always go out of her way to help another. She wants others to succeed no matter where they are in life. My father who has been deceased for more than 20 years is either in purgatory or repeating 3rd density as we speak. That is the difference between my parents.

Your choices are your own. I would suggest at the very least to figure out where you stand in your beliefs. Not just that all is one but with how you would like to continue your relationships with your relatives. My siblings and I never met eye to eye so we remain separate in different parts of the country. The relatives that I am closer with I do as I do with my mother… I keep my opinions to myself or play dumb. I approach topics from a therapist point of view where I allow the other to see what they are doing to themselves or to their family. I feel like I guide others to an understanding of their own instead of insisting that my beliefs are more correct.

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Welcome to this area. And I’m happy for you that your deeper self is opening up slowly to you. You’re being offered opportunities to have a deeper experience of life.

It sounds like you are handling this quite well. When you come to places where you are not sure how to proceed further, you might inquire, what is the most loving or most joyful pathway I can take from here? How can I be of most help? How can my presence here be helpful?

On the one hand you are discovering these things on you own, but on the other, there are many others, unknown to you, who are doing similar things. At some point you might try to attune to the vibrations of the others of your ilk to see if this is a supportive feeling. A little support now and again might be helpful.

I wish you all good things.

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Similar here. I’m also from a science and technical background. Had inexplicable experiences during lockdown.

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Same pushback from family here …so i changed the language.
I asked my oldest daughter to write an essay on the nature of belief …good and bad .
Her final conclusion was that belief systems seem to be a huge problem for us …so we decided to say this body of work is an understanding or a guide book for understanding self …things started to change then …it took awhile though …people have different adjustment periods.
The law of one requires that you go inward self analysis is the begining foundation …something many of us are afraid of …it takes time my friend keep at it …when family start to notice how you have changed ,as your beingness will change they will feel it and become curious.
Massive gratitude
Jay

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