I thought I’d share some thoughts that have been rolling around in my brain lately that have been weighing heavily on my heart in the last couple of years of my life, more so in the last 5 months.
We are in what would be the prime “golden” age of the spiritual movement, where more focused study on the soul’s evolution can begin to take place. Society as a whole has gotten to the place with technological advances that have simplified the way we live our lives, we now have a whole lot of room left for our minds to ponder the nature of reality. What does that mean entirely? I believe that simple of a definition to explain something so vast tends to fall short energetically when it comes to truly explaining what its all about and what is happening right before our eyes.
I found when I started to awaken to the nature of the illusion around us, I started to see that no matter how enlightened one becomes, there is always something that gets in the way energetically to sabotage in a sense, all the good work that spiritual leader/movement/teaching has accomplished. The nature of this particular illusion is that everyone’s ego will take over and ruin anything good if you don’t keep it in check. Not just keep it in check for one day. You have to ask yourself in every moment, “Why am I doing this? Is this just for my own glory or does this benefit anyone? Does it hurt anyone? Have I been led astray by my own shadows and insecurities, pride and arrogance?”
But no one takes on that particular responsibility when they choose to take on the added responsibility of becoming a teacher, leader, or guide. They leave that to the individual person learning and duck responsibility for what they are energetically putting out into the world. They feel they are entitled to give the advice, but in no way responsible for the consequences of that advice. And then, pressures of society are placed upon that particular individual and they are then motivated eventually to make money for the time they’ve spent “teaching and helping others.” Thus, everyone who gets involved in this for a living, has to start charging money for their services. The motivation for them helping goes from legitimately trying to help others (in a lot of cases), to finding that everyone needs help, everyone needs advice, and it feels like a thankless job trying to help more people than you have time for and you stretch yourself too thin.
Eventually you get so worn down, but the pressure to put out content, channellings, blogs, etc., adds up over time and it feels like no one is ever satisfied with the answers you give them. It just opens up more questions. And so it continues…
Over time, it warps into the need to get more subscribers and views to please your sponsors, or you get so overburdened by people wanting your help that you can’t make time for anyone, including yourself, unless you ignore the majority of the people trying to reach out to you. It’s actually impossible to keep up with all the comments, emails and questions when you get popular enough in any branch of the spiritual movement. Have you ever tried to contact anyone in any of these branches of spirituality? It’s impossible to get a hold of anyone real and if you do talk to a actual person, they don’t have time to say anything but some boilerplate response. Or you never get a reply. You send an email and it’s just lost in the wind. On YouTube for example, the “spiritual teachers” will get enough people commenting on their videos right after posting something new, that get high on the energetic vibration that is being sold to them in the moment and it leads many astray who cannot see the true intentions of those selling these practices.
This brings me to my next point. False praise. I don’t think praise is always entirely false, but there is something about it that warps the mind of the one receiving that praise if it’s absorbed like an addiction. It creates a barrier around the one receiving that praise, thinking they are untouchable because so many people love them, who cares about the conflicting opinions right? One conflicting opinion might tell you far more than the 9 others that agree with you. But many have difficulty seeing the value in learning from that which is opposite or different from your own point of view. The ego gets defensive and puts up a wall to any new information. “I can’t possibly be wrong, look at all this praise I’m getting for what I’m doing?!?” This is just the nature of this society. We created this system and everyone who is a part of it, falls victim to it eventually.
I studied this very closely for a long time on forums, blogs, YouTube comments, etc., and saw that anyone who posted a thoughtful opinion that contradicted what was being “sold,” their “audience” would jump down the throat of the one with the conflicting opinion, quoting at them lines from that particular spiritual practice or teacher’s sayings. This goes back endlessly in the past history of this planet. You can see this strategy strongly utilized by religious and cult leaders, as well by leaders of all kinds of spiritual movements. They didn’t need to do anything. They had a shield of people willing to jump into the middle of battle and help them fight for things they don’t even quite understand out of some loyalty they felt they owed that person/teacher/organization for “helping” them. That is how easily people can be brainwashed and manipulated into following these practices without questioning anything. It happens effortlessly. It seems to be a perfect system of manipulation.
The reason why I understand this so strongly is that I fell into it for awhile myself. Just long enough to understand it before it warped me further and ruined my life, like what has happened to so many people before me. Every organization has ways of making a lot of money off of people’s spiritual pain. I was on these sites/groups/channels trying to shake people out of their complacency, but I kept finding myself being pulled back into defending the material I was following blindly as well as noticing all these glaring red flags that popped up in so many interactions. There was a lot of information to absorb which I finally started to see more clearly what it all means through those interactions and observations.
When I watched a popular YouTuber in the past, I bought all the books he suggested. All of them. Most of them I couldn’t even start reading because they resonated so egotistical in the first few pages that I put them down as soon as I realized what was being sold to me. I stopped listening to his suggestions and wasting my money as soon as I realized what was shaping the mind of the person who was trying to teach me to be a better human being was not something I resonated with myself.
This happened to me also with the the Law of One and L/L Research. I bought a Law of One hoodie from their Etsy store that I can’t bring myself to wear. It’s in a donation pile now. I have physical copies of “A Wanderer’s Handbook,” the “Law of One books I-V”, and the “Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues.” I spent a lot of money because I wanted to show my support for them and they presented me with a way to do that, because trying to connect with anyone beyond that method was rather impossible due to their more recent boost in popularity.
I’m not saying any of this because I put blame on any of these organizations, individuals or programs that have been created with or without good intentions. I am pointing out a larger issue. How do we evolve as a soul without getting caught up in these things? How does one truly learn and grow and continue to live in a society that perpetuates these standards as the way things “just are?”
The spiritual movement has become an industry, just like everything else. We are over complicating things again. This seems to be etched permanently into the history of this planet. Whenever something evolves, it gets taken over by the need to dominate and control it, thus warping it into something it never started out to be. Nothing changes because that energy always stays the same. It takes over and suffocates the love out of everything before it has a chance to blossom and transform into a whole garden of bountiful growth. Instead, we get impatient our garden isn’t growing fast enough and douse it with so much fertilizer that we burn the f*ck out of it and suffocate it before it even has a chance.
What I am suggesting here is to take it back to the basics. Make life less complicated, not more. Remember we are infinite beings in finite form. We need to respect the finiteness of our journey and that means recognizing the fragile state we are in our hearts. Our society as a whole has very wounded masculine and feminine energy and it has created every dynamic that is playing out in our lives before us. Love needs to be nurtured and logic needs to be balanced with the heart. People need to learn to love again, to trust themselves, but to also fight for their own well being.
You know what I find to be healing? Sitting outside and feeling the sun warming my face, the breeze brushing past my hair… I walk down the street and I look at the mountains, I listen to nature, stare at the trees. I lose myself in the healing energy of the world around me and I feel like I can breathe again. I listen to music and I share the emotions of the one singing about their pain, emotions and feelings. I connect to others through empathy and found I have learned far more in these experiences than I ever have studying any text, listening to any YouTube video, documentary or reading any book.
Sitting in front of a computer reading stuff on a screen is bs in comparison to in-person energetic connection. This is coming from one who grew up with internet communication being my sole way of keeping in touch with everyone I’ve ever known. As a young adult, I used to stay up all night on the computer and went to bed at 7am when it was too hard to keep my eyes open any longer. I craved that connection so deeply that I gave up sleep for it, I gave up eating for it. I got lost in it for years because it was the only way I could connect.
I’d trade every second I spent connecting online for a single one-on-one talk in person. The amount of healing that can be accomplished when you approach your spiritual growth with an open heart and a desire to actually become a happier, more loving person, is immense.
We need to get out into the world and connect again. We got scared and built these safe little bubbles around ourselves that made it so the only way we can learn and grow is through these online movements that are being controlled and manipulated, either obviously or subtly, in one way or another. What happened to learning through experience, instead of discussing hypothetical experiences we will never learn because the bubble we built is comfortable.
I know that I’d rather be uncomfortable and grow organically than lonely and pushed into learning in a way that just is not working for anyone in the long run. The spiritual movement is broken, whether you can see it or not, and I really do hope we can get back to a place of organic growth based on unconditional love and understanding. Money should never be exchanged in healing. That is where we went wrong as a society and maybe one day, all will realize just how lost we all got going down this path.
Thank you for listening and I appreciate any thoughts you may like to add/comment on.