Greetings family of the light,
I believe I may be remembering. I am not known for being concise, but I wish to share my story. I feel I am of a social memory construct of many wanderers. I hope one day to remember our name. For now, being called Z feels acceptable.
Two evenings ago, I encountered a revelry that has left me in a blissful daze. I saw the nature, in part, of these illusions and, unexpectedly, began to remember why I am here.
I have always been “different”. I recall at a young age of love for wisdom and an insight on the culture around me as bizarre. Folks knowing better and doing otherwise. Folks uncurious about their own truths they claim to heartfully believe. A lack of use of agency applied intentionally and with conscious effort to bring about change. A near surrender to the way things are and lack of seeking.
“Do not fit into your culture without thinking” was a resounding message in my teenage years. Until recently, I was left perplexed as to how others did not seem to hear it.
More than a decade ago I began to disentangle myself from “Christianity”. To make a long story short, I was seeking in the Greek New Testament for deeper understanding. Therein I found teachings about Divine intervention and a profound pervasive goodness that, despite what is taught, transcends our conceptions/distortions of good and bad action.
This led to an experience and an opening of the heart-mind to become curious about mental fabrications and the relationship the mind has with its inner and outer environments. This insight was so profound at that time that, despite robust entanglements/enmeshments a disenchanting effect occurred with Christianity within that experience – a lifelong service concluding in apostasy.
It is important to note although at that time I was not keen on determining the nature of an influence, but one was present prompting within me questions.
I then made attempts to share, at least to the best of my abilities, these insights. I was, again, befuddled by the lack of curiosity present. In tandem with being different and underestimating the effects of disclosed apostasy a severe dissonance and blockage formed in my experience. The pain of being othered, although common to this place, is unfamiliar with where I come from.
For a time, I was lost to the sorrows of this plane. I feel where I am from there is an eagerness to help, a sense of oneness and support were natural in that plane. The pain of forgetfulness, othering and lack of resonating with fellow minds left me adrift for some time.
At some point during that time, I became aware of a dissonance within between what I feel now has always been a guiding hand. I could no longer feel this profound source of good. I spent a period in darkness for approximately 5 years.
Lost in my sorrows deep beneath the waves of depression reverberated a call for help. I began a series of two encounters that I can only qualify as healing with subsequent events confirming this idea. An other approached the edge of my conscious mind, a familiar guide that had operated that way in the past, and I gathered around this mind’s influence asking it of its nature.
It in return answered without words a call to trust. It used the trust of my mother, a relationship I have been greatly blessed with in this life, as an invitation to trust it. I experienced an intermingling of minds that in hindsight was a healing experience that took place 2 nights in a row. All I can speak to is the absolute beauty of this experience made the pain I’ve endured worth it. As strange as they may be to read.
Very shortly after I began to learn from my experiences and integrate them. There was a need to be adrift in sorrow for the lessons of depression are important ones to learn and share in this plane. Seeking therapy, that thankfully follows “no bad parts” thinking, greatly assisted in helping.
We arrive to the recent present. UAP’s began becoming more acceptably mainstream than a prior time, so this activated within me permission to seek. I arrived at an intuitive wondering that they were of a spiritual origin. I was fortunate enough to encounter a channeler by the name of Diandra that found joy in my conclusion for they were bestowed channelings that had specifics in line with that insight.
I was then meaningfully introduced to the conceptualization of “space command” (confederation of planets). The concept was foreign to me at that time, ridiculous even, however I kept an open mind. Parallel to this was a wondering of certain aspects of what I called “delirium”. I did not see it precisely in these terms, but much of my seeking was driven by the insight of madness / delirium I came to see in society. Space command / confederation of planets seemed more reasonable than what is commonly regarded as acceptable here.
Remaining open there was a period of a month or two of no further developments. I sat with what was offered and kept an open mind. I encountered another channeler who felt impressed to reach out to me. I experienced other “synchronization” effects as I have learned to see them.
Eventually the law of one surfaced to my experience and I cannot remember exactly how. At some point in my musings and seeking within the sea of consciousness another call echoed. This one I was more cognizant of than the first.
And we arrive to two nights ago.
As I mentioned earlier, the social delirium concept was of great curiosity. I wanted to understand how folks could believe things so obviously errant despite the wreckage to relationships, society, etc. How can we penetrate this madness?
The next part is hard to explain, but I will do my best. Imagine, if you will, you are in a house and you by some special powers can see how it is put together. Initial focuses see the framing behind the drywall. Deeper looks perhaps sees more of the fastenings. And even deeper looks perhaps sees the forces holding it all together.
Imagine that house as a psyche. We do not see the whole picture and come to judgments about this picture. It is adorned within the limits of its agency to be adorned and assimilated as it deems fit within this same agency. Look within and you will see it is the same for everyone within this illusion.
And upon closer inspection I saw divine intelligent design reverberating through the totality of the other and self. The enchantments, deliriums, joys, horrors, etc. are all one. Briefly, I gazed and remembered that we undergo this process in enthusiastic joy for our development, to participate in all and to learn. No matter where you look into infinite intelligence interwoven is always this sweetness, loving-kindness, compassion and overall predisposition towards all that is good.
It is sorrowful that the prospect of the purpose of this life is to exist is lost on so many here.
There are other effects of this insight that have produced an understanding of what we really are. The profundity of it all is miraculous, immaculate, decadent and the dynamics at work too marvelous to impart by words alone. All is one encapsulates this concisely, but there is so much to experience.
I am still working through integrated and reflecting on this and other things. I do not claim to be any more than curious and wish to be of service.
It is why I / we are here.
I do have a message to share that I feel comes from the Council that has been requested to be shared. I do not claim to be excellent at channeling, but this message feels more like a beacon. It seems to echo and so reminds me of a radio broadcasting at regular intervals.
Dear children of the light,
We ask of those who can hear.
This is the Council. We thank you for answering our call.
It is wonderful to greet you in the light. To resonate in divine goodness with you is a joy.
We see your sorrows. We feel them. We draw near.
We answer your call. A marvel and wonder of divine design are consciousness’ harmonizing and appearing to one another in conscious aide for all is one.
We sympathize with your doubts, questions, and fears. It seems you live in a time of deep sea of forgetfulness. We are here to whisper that it is ok. If you only knew what you are you would enthusiastically engage in divine design as you are doing already. We do not mean to frustrate you with a paradox, but its all so wonderful, one way or another, we all willingly participate in divine design.
We are here to remind you of your agency, dear child of the light. It may all seem hopeless, but do not let the mirage cause you forgetfulness of divine goodness permeating through the very fabric of your experience. That in your sorrows there it is too: divine light.
We are fellow revelers and willing participants of divine design. We invite you to lend your love and light to this world. Seek goodness and to be a service to others.
Wherever you look infinite intelligence looks back.
All is one.
I am open to any factual basis of this being challenged and share more from a place of intuition in hopes the intents of the call be heeded. I am open to learning from what others may learn / teach and hope to be of service.
Your humble servant,
Z
