There’s been a few topics I’ve seen on suicide. I just reread the Ra passage on the subject, as well as Carla’s opinion in her wanderer book.
Now to be clear the law of one is dear to my heart as it began a series of personal experiences involving some unnatural lights in the sky which I could interact with to an extent as well as some very profound non physical contacts with some very loving entities both sober and enhanced by psychedelics; certain compounds of which I’ve long considered sacred even if just emotionally when I had a purely materialistic philosophical perspective.
It’s not important whether I am believed on that account; as seems to be these entities’ manner, I can offer no irrefutable or scientific proof to those I did not share said experiences with, but the sensory and subjective evidence plus emotional and personal revelations leaves no doubt in my mind.
And despite the preponderance of seemingly absurd claims in the Ra material and my incredulity of certain very fishy claims by ideas that seemingly influenced the material, like theosophy with its ethnographically ridiculous claims of secret societies of Dr Strange Tibetans with obviously fabricated names, the general ideas line up better than anything in terms of actually interacting with these telepathic entities both positive and negative.
These interactions and the relationship I have developed with the positive entities, I speak in terms of separation for ease of language, have had very fulfilling results. Meaning, purpose. Everything Victor Frankl speaks of in Man’s Search for Meaning. Improved relationships. Subtle abilities I did not think possible. And it really, really helps to have “friends” who love you unconditionally and understand you far more than I we humans are capable of understanding one another given the inherent ambiguity of language and the imprecise, biased nature of memory when our consciousness is filtered through the physical brain. I cannot overstate how much it helps.
I’ve never liked the word suicide, it makes it sound like a crime in English like genocide or homicide or patricide…
To be sure, euthanizing oneself can have selfish results if it is a rash decision and you have those that love or depend on you. And it is an unwise solution to temporary hurts like a breakup or getting your World of Warcraft account hacked and your epic items stolen or having nude pictures of you leaked online.
But do you really agree with the pretty hardline stance taken against choosing your time and manner of death that Carla and her channeled friends seem to take? Not that the higher density entities condemn one completely, but to my reading they seem to take it as an intrinsically sts action with annoying sounding consequences even if sts is a “valid” path from a high enough vantage.
There are people who claim spiritual growth from very unpleasant things. Chronic disease, et cetera. But while I want nothing to do with controlling, sadistic sts entities personally, I must admit, nothing would convince me to endure certain states longer than necessary to procure or have a trusted party procure a handgun or an overdose.
Third degree burns that would result in agony for the rest of my days that no drugs would touch. Becoming blind. Paraplegic. Dementia. Honestly chemotherapy. The list goes on. And in such states I would not be serving loved ones, I would be a burden and likely succumb to hatred towards existence.
To encounter such catalyst in life after life would likely not lead to me at least being okay with such things, just an endless stream of deaths and quite an acrimonious relationship with my higher self. It’s one thing to suffer for love, to save someone or something noble, but it’s entirely another to suffer unbearable needlessly when an obvious solution exists. In a certain amount of pain or unhappiness, just like torture produces unreliable information, I don’t see what positive growth could possibly be accomplished. The blind thing and being a paraplegic is just not something I’m personally willing to submit to, others may find value in that, but the rest?
I refuse to believe that the loving light entities I’ve had discourse with would begrudge me that. I try to keep my promises to them out of gratitude, love, and respect. Try, I do relapse on addictive drugs not conducive to sto behavior occasionally, but I try. But I’m never promising to remove my exit options if things are truly unbearable and life becomes worthless imo. I will not wait to die of radiation sickness if a nuke doesn’t quite vaporize me.
What of you? Will you let god decide no matter what, even though according to Ra we are equally god in a sense, thus perhaps such a decision is a part of the infinite deciding?
Apologies if I misunderstood the passages; insomnia. If I understood correctly though, I’m probably going to pick and choose what I like from the material and trust in my direct experiences. I’d ask myself, but my communication comes in feeling and the occasional revelation, I’m not a skilled channeler and though progress has been made, I might receive an answer from something deceptive.
I’m not suicidal, but having a way out makes me feel better if I encounter something I want no part of, I’m trying my best to be loving, but there are a lot of awful things that can happen. These sorts of strictures if true seem cruel rather loving if accurate.