I am going through some old layers of unaccepted and unconfronted parts of myself. Few years back, when I discovered The Law of One, many things started to make sense. Synchronistically and by connecting the dots, it was kind of revealed to me that I am a wanderer, probably from the 6th density in the past life. It makes sense, given how alien I feel looking at this world and the people around me. In a very casual way, I never really felt like I belong to this place - I might be good at blending in, but the feeling of being out of place stays with me despite years of working on myself. Being on this planet definitely feels like a sacrifice with a huge risk. And I do not want to sound negative, because being simply here in every moment is a blessing. It’s just that the line between it being a gift or a curse is sometimes very blurry.
But let’s get to the point. One of the parts of myself that I have a problem with accepting and being comfortable with, is gender identity. I have a male body - that’s the way I see it. But I don’t feel any separation between male and female as a soul / consciousness. Like I do not really feel I am this or that. I feel like a Being inhabiting this body, which is fine. And if I had a female body, I would also be having a sometimes great, and sometimes also bad time. Because I deeply understand that being on either side can be a meaningful experience. I always felt in between everywhere, because of my ability to understand two opposite views. But of course it is not easy, if in the world around me, the idea of separation is so normalized.
I wonder if that’s something that’s connected to being of 6th density in the past life, where the idea of gender is possibly “outdated”. Let me know if some of you share my feelings or have an opinion they want to share. Love and Light to Everyone.