Hi all, I’m sort’ve new here, I’ve been stalking the threads a little but have been reading Confederation material for the past six months, almost solely (six months is still nothing, I know). I wanted to share an experience that I’ve been dealing with ever since awakening. To some degree I’ve realized the nature of it, what it is, but I have yet to fully understand why I have this experience or how it’s happening.
I was very agnostic and somnolent in the illusion until one day I met a guy and did too many psychedelics at once. I was/am only 21 years old, I was quite a fool and had no idea what would happen. This was a one time thing that, while lighting a fuse of spirituality inside, made me stray from psychedelics ever since, due to me almost going insane. In the days/weeks after this completely terrifying, reality-shattering experience I began to notice this feeling. Whenever I would consider what I now understand to be spiritual matters (“spirituality” wasn’t a concept to me before) such as higher selves, chakras, meditation, all being one, these chills would start coursing through me, usually starting at the top of my head/pineal gland and traveling downward.
This feeling solely guided me through a spiritual awakening. It would happen when I prayed, so I believed in prayer; it would happen when I read things about astral projecting, quantum consciousness, all these hidden jewels just sitting there on the Internet, so I believed it all. Essentially anything spiritual would trigger the feeling. If my life was a ship in an ocean, my ship got torn asunder into bits and pieces, leaving me drowning and choking for air, until I happened to find a life raft called “the Law of One” that took everything I’d been learning - timelines, astral projection, telepathy, everything - and organized it into something that made sense.
When I first read the Ra material, that feeling, which is called “frisson”, was so intense and common, it was like every word was triggering it. At the time I didn’t know how to trigger it myself, it was just happening almost all the time, every day. Without it I wouldn’t have gone anywhere, I don’t think. Anyway, I’ve chosen the Confederation as my path, and it’s been a wonderful joyride reading the channelings every day and always feeling that frisson whenever I realize something profound.
There’s a lot more to this that I just can’t fit in one post, but I’m really curious if anyone else has had similiar experiences, constant physiological phenomenon happening to them during a spiritual awakening. I’ve worked with this feeling so much that I’ve learned to use it in meditation to reach states of what can only be called “spiritual/mental orgasm” where the joy, the frisson, inside me reaches such intensity it’s as if I’m about to explode with love. Frisson has been a blessing to me, at times a curse (like when I’m in public and get a random frisson “attack”), I still haven’t a clue why this happened but I’m determined to figure it out. Also, it could be explained by just this:
6.1 “There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly and without control, to tap into energy sources. They may or may not be entities who wish to serve.” Needless to say I wish to serve others with all my being. I’ve had to work through feelings of spiritual arrogance, of wanting to awaken everyone, of feeling desire to save the world, etc. and a lot of my personality has been “burned away” through the change that comes with this uncomfortable path - I still have infinity to learn, though. I’ve considered that if it is a hole in my aura, it’s been healing over the past few months, which is a good thing. Now that I know how it feels, I can consciously open that hole myself. I want to use it to help others but I haven’t a clue how I would do this. Maybe healing? Thank you for reading and love/light to you all