If someone that was rather sad came to me, I believe sadness is, often, related to one core aspect of fear, that is actually a fear of yourself.
Some children get it later. Some earlier. If you’ve ever had the thought “I wish I was sad again, or more sad - at least I didn’t risk hurting others (though you absolutely did).” you know this.
I have not been really satisfied before being sure I have made no mistake, but through that, I have actually found that there is a very beautiful way that is exactly now becoming available.
You need a sort of community, which is mixed with wisdom. Wisdom such as:
- Acting a certain manner requires you to think a certain way. When you try and hang around bad entourage and smoke with them, or even hang around them, you can start feeling you have to act like them, and if you’re going to act a certain way, you kind of often start thinking that way.
This also applies to changing your life for the better. You can’t just sit around and wait to feel loving.
In a sense, action is like a third part of your being.
When you put something through your actions, you’re forced to start thinking like that, and facing some of your thoughts as you do the thing. Wanting to give up; wanting to be better, and so on.
Then, what that’s going to do is bring up feelings. If you’ve ever wondered why you feel bad about the past, it’s because when you think a certain way in a situation, you sort of keep that in your mind as a feeling.
- All that ever gets triggered are feelings. It's like stepping on a plate in a game, and having the door open because you stepped on that plate.
That door wouldn’t open if you weren’t in that exact square.
Now, picture that you have a game where everyone has their own plates which cause certain houses that they walk by to open, while these houses don’t open for others.
Really, the goal of changing your feelings about something; giving up harmful behaviors, and so on, is really that less of the painful doors come open, and more the doors you would actually enjoy.
And, it’s very hard to know what houses you’d really like to go in, if all the time in your life you go through doors that are a five, or less, and have never gone through a door that’s a nine, or a ten.
There’s endless wisdom out there. What’s really necessary is just that someone at the right level (the standards aren’t too high - just opening the heart and a little bit of blue ray, teensy tiny bit, like reaching your hand into the sky on the Himalayas, getting a bit of air, and somehow carrying it back down).
And, someone that can be compassionate to your particular distortions.
There really is such a thing as ability to understand culture, and I was very lucky. (What I thought was a curse for most of my life (of course these things are not perfect love and stillness ultimately, and the creator should have a better way to do these things, but once they happen, I often try and speak of them in a happy fashion, because I really am grateful for love and stillness as much as I can, with all my being),) turned out to be quite a blessing.
Spending time on the Internet and making a few very amusing mistakes like trying to debate someone about fact figures from History (haha), and briefly hating someone because they were from a country which I later also really loved (America), which taught me, after posting - multiples times - may I add - a video of the Soviet Union conquering Europe - that you mustn’t judge someone by their government - huh?
There are a lot of character traits that are incongruent with universal truth that I had to really see and heal, and I still have more general things to change regarding how to be truly wise, rather than simply cunning and loving, without yet another key quality known as “stillness”, or, thanks to Aaron Abke, again, “listening”.
But, I am glad I experienced some very negative philosophies and allowed someone on the server I ran back then to be bullied, although I have made sure to pray for that someone since remembering these kinds of things, and to at least learn a lesson from that.
I used faith a lot to get here, in conclusion, as to how I don't experience sadness any longer, and very, very little doubt, but I had to sacrifice a lot of that love and quiet which is so natural to life.
It can happen to strongly driven by personal traits (astrology, numerology, energies at birth) pertaining to will in general types (though everyone has a purpose of their own), to be quite able to go beyond sadness/shame/absorbing pain from others, and fear/failure, but to never try and talk to others out of fear of losing their power.
This often, for me, stemmed from the assumption that I would be telling the universe a message of “I don’t believe in you.”, and while this may have been meant to happen for my little journey, perhaps it’s not too late for us to work together as a species.
It’s not too late, I believe, for us using the power that the divine and angels are giving us.
Sometimes it can happen where we doubt the angels. The other side in general.
I actually, when I was ten, was scared of aliens kidnapping me, and had to watch a YouTube video on paranoia to gather up the courage to get a glass of water at night.
But, I am fully certain that I can trust the angels. You may wonder if perhaps they are masterfully manipulating us to get around free will, or other things, but I say, "trust will never lead you wrong.", though it may not be absolute, since it's believing in love that helped me not give up on having any hope when I felt that age-old "NO LOVE".
It is that which helped me recently in a dream from which I woke with the vague feeling of having had an ayahuasca-esque experience of avoiding a certain darkness trying to suck me in, though, using that description, I’ve never taken any drugs except for sugar and, for a month, this is another story relating to my making a mistake and meditating under a bridge, psychiatric drugs, for short, the police came and at the psych yard, because I acted super nice despite being taken by police, they thought I had some kind of psychosis.
It’s a very funny story. I made one very big mistake, I think, when my body started shaking there (for some reason I feel this is not an infringement to share) after I let go of it and let God take over things, having the impulse to say: “Mom, I love you.”, since she was crying next to me, but not saying it since I wanted to have nothing to do with the mess outside, I was a bit scared of it.
The story is really interesting. Doctors with medical training thought I was unconscious, and other things. The following day I also went another mode of “Oh my God, the system actually is as I’ve been hearing.” - basically, I was kind of suspicious since I was asked to take the hospital’s pijamas (which weren’t bad, just not much vibrance of colors, if I remember right) or be tranquilized, and I also wasn’t allowed to write, and had to stay in a tiny room for 24 hours.
Anyways, back to the angels. That’s why I really trust them. They really always helped me through these things, including with actual physical signs like car plate numbers, were very patient with my occasional doubt, and also didn’t give up on my free will just because others’ went against it.
For that, for acting in a way that didn’t repeat my childhood feeling of having to be “right” to others, I am actually tearing up a bit while writing this.
You don’t have to trust them, and there are either demons out there, or angels playing the role of demons to teach you things in a safe environment (I don’t know for sure…)
Still, they’re pretty awesome!
I actually teach so much and try to understand things a lot, which is nice, but I forgot I actually really liked to talk this openly by default.
Thank you. I truly believe that by default, honesty is rewarded. Some rather deep spiritual virtues or the like may be difficult to attain, and that’s why I believe everyone has a unique purpose and journey.
It might be my purpose to understand all these things, and some practical subjects also, for grounding (if you can’t do a bit of math, where are you going trying to understand Quantum Physics??), but it might be someone else’s highest and purpose to translate ancient Latin works into English and bring to the area of said books a cross-disciplinary intellectual understanding.
Say, to give a concrete example, that you translate the book “Etymologiae”, a seventh-century book by Isidore of Seville, an archbishop who compiled a lot of the Romans’ knowledge, and I find in your translation, with the Latin equivalent available:
“Noli timere, tu es puer meus.” - “Do not fear, for you are my boy.”
Knowing Latin, this is actually a quote which has helped me in my journey, despite being from the seventh century.
But, say I didn’t want to learn Latin on my journey, your being happy and translating might play into an alternative purpose of my life which requires less suffering, perhaps.
Thus, your being happy and childlike, following a simpler path, is paradoxally perhaps what saves me and allows me to change the world.
Thus, our impact is possibly the same, and yours may in fact even be greater.
This is, maybe, that same paradox Ra was trying to say happened with them.
Teaching the Law of One, which is also distorted and bent for strength to victoriously control other. Helping many, and being “right”, and also being “wrong” at the same time.
Or, maybe, I am, since this is a connection that I cannot fully prove, wrong!
Either way, this is a very “highfalutin way of saying a very “lowfalutin” idea”, as Tom DeMarco would say, author of the best book ever on Structured Analysis, the science of analyzing systems (almost everything is a system) and finding better ways to do things, and selling them, and doing estimating heuristics to make up for the difficulty of estimating things.
His book is not on any book sharing free websites as far as I have seen from a quick search, but if you ever get into making a project, even though I’ve only played with this book for half a year, I truly believe it would probably save you so much time. It’s the condensed life experience of someone, in a sense.
So, this is a very highfalutin way of saying: “I am very grateful for your being honest and truthful.”
That truth is important. I do believe that it matters.
I know very little, and often feel somewhat confused about certain bits of messaging and wording from the other side, and still, there is a lot more to the world.
To always wonder about this truth can certainly help you grow, if you wish for it, but you don’t need to grow like everyone else did.
Indeed, does the Earth spin right, or left, or does it spin at all?
We are moving in a spiral through time and space, and there are many unique points. Reasoning can sometimes make us forget the broader picture.
And of course, love is with you either way!
Edit: “DID I REALLY FORGET SOME OF THE SPACING AGAIN?” - if I may, for a little, spacing is a rather amusing game. Finally, a game I can enjoy. Pff.
