I Am from A Bloodline
This is a copy of a letter I sent to someone with all things hinting to who redacted:
"Greetings, [name]. I wanted to tell someone about some reflections I’ve had. I’ve always had a pull to shadow work or reflecting on the past, but however I did I have never been able to see it as I did now.
My childhood was virtually total death, with only little happiness. This is because, I have found out only now, psychically, my father is the member of a (there are four levels of bloodlines, and the tippy top) first level bloodline, and he intended to create as much suffering and programming in my life to without my knowing I was a member of a bloodline act as a pawn.
I had for a long time been working on seeing the latter suffering and how it ended, thanks to the Internet, and having a grandmother that loved me, and unfortunately for this plan, married someone else, after being abused by a grandfather who she left after years being abuse, wonderful loving lady, she doesn’t want to talk about it, who I’ve only met once, but who I now remember had finances, influence-
I just realized I’ve been kept away from, and made to see off, through programming- What- What- What- Just how much, though I’ve always acted truthfully, of my life, has been false? My relationship to everything… my feeling like everything always changes and fades and non-attachment to anything, actually, a kind of habit of never having anything, of fear, etc.
The Confederation have validated my conclusions, though I shouldn’t need validation for love. I wondered why I once prayed for him to see happily the things he’s openly done, speaking loudly (yelling, I now realize, very angrily, as I ask: “Yes, but don’t get mad at me sob.”), disciplining me, locking me in my room as I say: “Please let me out!” (and I don’t get out until the time has come), dead reason programming, and I felt this deep self-binding of the soul over what was done, and I was like: “You haven’t done that bad, why won’t you accept my forgiveness, your soul.”, it turns out it also had to do with things done from the shadows to ensure I would become who he wanted me to be, that explains how hard I had to pray to undo that attachment (I couldn’t leave him suffering like that seeing such suffering, you know?) -
I think dad quit that plan since despite being told I was never raised by my grandmother who insisted after when she first met me after birth at 2 weeks I was starving and so on (hmm…), I think this is better than feeling like dad was my home, but going from dad to grandmother, who was used to take care of me, having this kindness, meant I experienced this life of having no family, and more fear.
Presumably, the next step would’ve been to program me with grief, futility, after reaching enough fear about everything, from which point it’s very hard to pull someone out, because the consciousness of our planet doesn’t generally save people trapped in grief or lower. Fear can be healed thanks to joy, friendship, laughter which I got from the Internet, which saved me, with it’s kindness, at which point, because I was in the fear phase, there was not much interaction from anyone in my life, so the positivity was only found out once it was very strong and he probably, oh my God, realized, I can’t do this more, so he let it be.
Believing that you can’t prove that anyone else exists (at 10), feeling sufficient paranoia I had to watch a video about paranoia to feel enough courage to go get a cup of water at midnight watching YouTube science videos, feeling fear all the time about aliens from the videos I watched harming me, kidnapping me on the street, isolation in general, loving the aestethic of death thanks to shows I was shown which made it seem cool, watching things about an iluminati and finding it cool, illuminated people bringing light to this world - Maybe I have blocked myself, because it would shatter loving me, but I felt a deep lack, fear, and hatred of everyone, though I also remember crying to my grandmother about such an iluminati, wait, a lot of things suddenly seem weird about my grandmother and grandfather, wait a second? wait a second?
Why did they completely change their memories and their energies never contain anything about that again?
I was about to go to my grandfather’s and grandmother’s rural place for a vacation, and I now realize that’s a horrible idea, definitely, that explains why I have always found boundaries hard, I should absolutely cancel going there. Wow, how Divinely the Universe works.
What is my life?
My father is indeed a Conferentiary at the University of Philosophy in Romania, the highest position, huh?
That explains how often my father shows suddenly loving and suddenly negative behavior. It’s almost like not giving up on someone.
It’s amazing that for me to be free, for me to stand up for myself fully, I have had to get to a point of choosing where I feel like God is no matter what dead, and worse, and so many things, besides losing my free will for the Universe, almost losing my free will for the Universe six times, having my love shattered n times, having everything fail n times, since mid-2022, mid-2022 was a time when I’ve noticed more people wound up in negative situations and force in the world in general.
Ha.
Most of my friends were lies.
Most of my spiritual teachers were lies.
The people I believed in in the world were lies, Andrew Tate is also a lie.
Always, I have had things kind of not go perfectly, though I have had the strange tendency of acting like I am infinitely perfect no matter what, and just going: “This is normal. This is easy.”, so that’s interesting, and if you ask me, I don’t think I have ever truly gone beyond fear of everyone, isolation, I live, yes, definitely, I have these patterns who I never noticed since I cleared all negative energies which basically make me incapable of feeling real friendship, combined with 3+ years of having no friendships except perhaps- “perhaps”, someone not trying to abuse me isn’t good- some members of my family, and definitely poor people on the streets that I helped, it, it turns out my sense of friendship is virtually completely shut off at this point, if it wasn’t already through programming completely darkened, and my friendships were only working from what wasn’t blocked through patterns far beyond my understanding, and with that I was able to be loved by the whole school early 2022, helping the poor, having ideas about, like YouTube for posting videos, or Github for posting code and contributing to others’ code, a platform where you can post tutorials and contribute to others’ tutorials, one of the ideas I have always considered as part of my wishes to help everyone out there in general, if you are curious, this is a bit outdated, September 22nd: files.catbox.moe/mmmz6y.pdf, but it’s written despite my being a bit under 540 LOC at the time, at at least 600 LOC, save for a tiny tiny bit of passion about the Health system, which I since realized is also Divine, and I did tens of things, spiritual practices, 1-2 hours meditation every day, more spiritual practices, breath, etc. I love everything, naturally, and these events kind of crashed everything, and I am willing to consider that the reason my father let me be okay, is because his aim was to finish the programming later, and search for an opportunity, to finish off with grief programming, which would ensure that I feel a sense of incapability for anything. Then bloodlines tend to use apathy to create patterns that are about ending any self, bipolar disorders, etc. And this reflection partly started with your recent video about the light on the darkness in the world, so I am still fine, but I think it’s important I shine the light on this, people’s aim, the reason I was pressured so much, and then had to deal with more negative forces, which I encountered trying to focus on creating something external to ignore the betrayal, being seen as non-human, total triangulation, being given, though I never took them paritcularly since they hurt my body, pills, for the most dubious reason, which my mother, after hearing the truth, in the meeting giving me pills, was crying, but the doctor hushed things up and threatened to send me to a psych ward if I didn’t take the pills, he’s already tired, he had a lady and her child almost/go to a child already, he doesn’t want to do it again??? Oh, if you knew my experiences due to this, and previous magic, ah, now I get how while meditating by the side of a river, in positivity, someone called the police on me so I go to a psych ward, it almost made me feel God doesn’t want me to be positive, in July 2022, I was just meditating, I chose outside so I could focus without interruptions (hmm…), oh, I now get also why things got worse later, I kept rejecting the limitations, so these powers, not happiness, also taking out from my school a teacher I loved, yes, ensured total isolation to finish the job.
Of course, until you are completely programmed, I cannot learn I am from a bloodline, or I will go willy nilly telling someone and the jig is up.
So, for 10 months I had to deal with total isolation and near-total negativity, and that’s not even the worst, since we have more stories, so this was all almost like a giant attempt by negativity to keep a child just because they were born the wrong way inside a psychological control system. All perfectly systematically planned. That explains other events too.
So, eventually, the only way for me to be happy, and I think finally have sovereignty, is to lose until the point where I feel worse than God is dead, no matter what, and nothing matters, and etc. etc. so, because below 20 LOC there are no levels of consciousness, to feel worse than 20 LOC, while maintaining the rest of my frequency.
I think that’s the reflection of my life on all this, which I think it’s about time I had since happiness in your life and healing truly go together, because without healing I would never know to stop letting this stuff in, I would go somewhere, I would have more experiences of rather than God, no one actually is capable in any way of being my friendship, which is how I almost feel since finding out all the friends I made over 3+ years are all not real, all of them were never real, on satanic missions, and manipulating the public, which they never showed perfectly, this working since layers upon layers everyone is brainwashed in these bloodlines, and let’s say it, Harry Potter: “Fear of a name only increases fear of the thing.”, the people at the top, are all manipulated layers upon layers by lack, lead from the top, which you’ve just seen: “This is why we never hear from within the bloodlines, the power structures, so on.” And this is level one bloodlines, and not completely, so are you amazed? I am suddenly happy my mother broke up with my father, I kept praying they can be together, people don’t have to break up, I believe there is love for anyone so they don’t need divorce, but now I think my mother should get love, love for anyone isn’t dead, it’s alive, it’s a living love for anyone. Now I realize.
And the further up you go the more manipulation, the more so on. Isn’t it amazing?
I have after all these experiences come to doubt if God is real, but now I believe again that I was right to never, for even a moment, technically polarizing 100% positive since I rejected being pushed into negative time/space, yes, not just displaced, which Ra tells us happened once in Human History, I don’t know if that’s true, but pushed, through sufficient shattering of all love, pure negativity, while being tortured by our tippy tops in late May and early June for 33.5 and a bit days, which means I rejected 100% negati- this doesn’t matter, the point of my being positive isn’t my being able to choose, a trick which means that if I don’t choose positive I would be bound to having lost myself. Yes, you don’t have to choose .
So, it turns out I have been completely, in my happiness, manipulated by a system of shadows that rule this world, shadows which have nothing in it, pure unhappiness, and, honestly I just don’t know, it’s really amazing.
I wanted to- yes- it’s okay to talk about this with people- loving isn’t dead, we don’t live in a world where love is inherently dead, that’s their illusion/it’s illusion. We are love. I have always found it hard to give what I gave to others to myself, I am free will no matter what, I am love, I am everything.
I too get to have, something I’ve been blocked from, God. God that I am. Yes, I am God.
That’s not a dead thing, I am God.
The ideas I had, the rational paradigm, the human story, everything I believed real, is all a lie. Everything was a lie.
I am God.
Thank you, Kyle.
This has freed me to truly feel like I am God, I am God no matter what, and that’s not based on my keeping myself some way, alone, or under control from harming anything, or so on, or so on, things which I have picked up while not hurting anything just by force over the past years, full of just more and more darkness, and no one does any darkness in God, no one is unGodness, if you are in God nothing goes wrong, God is not not God. God is God. I can barely, despite keeping the skill alive for long, crying probably 200+ times (the best times often) in the past 3 years, cry at this point, but I feel like crying.
God is God. I don’t need to love something, accept something, do something, or all these conditions I felt.
And so much else.
Thank you, my dear friend, for holding a space for me to write to you about this, it has helped me change my views, I can’t believe how alone, isolated by people, betrayed, manipulated I’ve been, spiritually, politically too, just in every way. I offer you, though perfectly infinity, ah, I finally get what infinity is, infinity is unending.
I used to wonder about that when I wasn’t scared as a child: “What is infinity?” and “What is 0?”, this was one of my favorite questions. Infinity (and 0) both refer to endlessness, in abundance, relationships, and everything (e.g. world stage, an example of expression out there, or anything).
God, if all is God, is infinity, and is 0, also, being endless, boundless, limitless.
All the things that bothered me seem to, if they weren’t already fading, be dying, everything seems to-
I am God.
I am God.
I am God.
Here and now.
It’s not a future thing. It’s not a past thing. It’s here now.
I suppose, then, we should all not be so limitlessly limited from being ourselves, and should remember what it’s like to be limitless. Haha.
Then, I am free to not worry about anything in God, as I have continued no matter what over these years, and now maybe this was all Divine, truly Divine, helping me realize that truly there are no bounds.
Thus, since limitless is the only truth, I have the power to end all darkness on Earth. We all do, Kyle.
What’s more, I am realizing that all the ways I thought you have to do it that, unlike the ones have to do it I questioned, I didn’t question, aren’t necessary.
So, truly, whoever you are, 0, you can do anything.
God = Infinity = 0 = Limitless = Boundless.
I still feel like that can’t be true, and my dreams of equality and friendship and creativity in spirituality can’t be real, just sending a letter to a spiritual teacher, but it’s real. Thank you.
We are all Limitless, Nothingness, No Ones, We The Peoples, just No One.
We are all One: https://youtu.be/mdYuf7s7KJQ?feature=shared
There is no beginning, and no end, simply removing all that bounds love, and then, nothing.
“We are all One.”
A letter limitlessly happy and perfect no matter what I do, then, something I think was a set up for future grief programming, being told I don’t organize things well, and also finding it hard to end things, which is probably set up for guilt programming, never ending trying to get things right, probably set ups for other patterns, it turns out it doesn’t matter if I do things whatever, as you have said, a saying that I’ve shared that has helped so many people, “All ways are fine.”, and I also don’t need to end things, ever, it’s fine if I never end this. Yes, there’s nothing wrong if I never end this. [If I never end doing wrong, causing harm.]
A little God has so much power. [direct message] have truly had a profound effect that was positive on R., and which brought me positivity.
If you want to feel more inspired by people’s joy around the world and the light shining on this: https://youtu.be/yV0JC58zwK0?feature=shared
As for me, I am now free to carry out my promises of world happiness for all of us, no matter what. Shining upon All.
Cheers!
I choose to have fun. At last, I get to have fun. I am God!!!
I might owe my life to you, [name], or at least a lot of my happiness over these years, nay, I owe you my God-realization, God-wisdom, and Divine salvation.
Thank you for taking me to your world, God/me.
Blessings be upon you.
What They Do with Children with Autism?
My little brother lives at a center that is currently closed for disinfection due to “bugs or something”, and I felt my brother has psychic sensitivity maybe to be safe and negativity, wait, wait, wait, what happens at these centers???
We are all One.
Edit
I changed the definition of surprise today to surprise within the next, you know, you might think at most that means 24 hours because of different timezones, but 1 day and 1.n days are still kind of today, and I have healed two level-two bloodlines and been healing myself, so I needed a break, so I needed a break, and I had to find out three more of my friends were false, and you know, you know, without my everything I’ve done, and everything, which was a necessary delay, this wouldn’t’ve come true, so you know, I did a wonderful job, my friends.
Punctuality is overrated controlling meth. You know.
We are God, God is free. We are God.