Hi, brother!
Happy you are here! Where are you from? I know Russian too!
Some parts of your path seem so familiar to me. Yeah, the sense of wrongness disappears over time or, in my case, decreases:)
Yet, I don’t share the vision that we should abandon laws, institutions, and leading entities. The appearance of these is the natural process of evolution of Earth and consciousness in the 3’d density. Although governments, institutions, financial systems, etc. are far from the positive orientation, we should improve them, clense, not to cut the tree because of the ill branches metaphorically speaking:). I would assume that institutions, countries, their laws are the basics for the further social memory complex of the planet.
Speaking of the utopian island where everyone is enlightened:) I think anyone around here dreamed of such place. BUT! This idea holds something egalitarian, in my opinion. I think, we shouldn’t stay away from ‘bad’ people but be around and hold our light/presence if we feel like we can. If you are strong, you are needed as a role model and you have responsibility for where you apply your power. No matter you are a wanderer, positively polarized Earth’s soul, or a soul aspiring for positive graduation, you would like to help others instead of running on a private island where you will feel the convenience and pleasure of hightened society. At the same time, I get you – it’s extremely difficult at times, but we are here for fun not for rest. Do you feel me, brother?
We can discuss this topic, if you’d like to. Thanks for being here!