Still new here, so I apologize if this is a topic already covered. I’ve been pondering this question for some time, and it’s really been nagging me recently, especially with some of the posts I’ve viewed/read. Rather than hijack someone else’s thread, I figured it best to post my question here.
I’ve gone down the rabbit hole with this one, so I’ll try and condense some of my thoughts. Basically, for the sake of argument, I’m assuming that the theory of this life being a soul trap is true. That whatever Logos/Demiurge/Nameitwhatyouwill that received this sector of the Infinite Source has created a prison of sorts, where we are sentenced to coming back again and again to feed both the positive and the negative entities that work for it.
I’m also assuming, for the sake of this argument, that most of the material we have been given is true. Some of it just doesn’t seem to add up, until I looked at it from the perspective of a soul trap. First, the way that incarnating has been described seems to be based on a negative influence. Unless I misremember, we have been told upon graduating into 3rd Density, we don’t get a choice on whether to incarnate or not, until we’ve done it enough and then we can choose to incarnate, or get like some kind of seniority choice.
That doesn’t make sense to me, unless the purpose is to force us into a few incarnations to hitch ‘karmic baggage’. And concerning karmic baggage… Unless I misremember, we were told we chose all the catalysts/experience/etc for this incarnation. Going by that logic, there should be no karma. Everything was chosen prior (in other words, mutual consent/soul contracted), we just forget due to the veil (and have been told that veil lifts when we die). But, if we can be manipulated through fear that we have to rectify these issues (which were technically agreed upon choices), well, then I guess we keep coming back and feeding the warden of this prison system.
Which then brings me to the push for STO. If we are all One, if this is all the Creator, then it should not matter what conscious choices we choose, because we now understand we are the Creator getting to know Itself. Let me first say I infinitely prefer a life of STO (I’ve done the other, mostly unconsciously, its lonely and mostly miserable; I empathize with those who consciously do this). But I realize that IF this is a trap, the best people to convince to keep returning are STO. If you’ve been STS the whole time, you can’t be manipulated into thinking you have karmic debt to repay.
I don’t want to misrepresent myself as someone pushing STS. Some of my meditations recently gave me the word Balance. I don’t mean that for every kitten I save, I drown another. I mean that for me, I shouldn’t focus on STO/STS, one to the exclusion of the other. Rather, I need to consciously realize there come times when STO is appropriate, and there come times when STS is.
I hope this has not offended, that wasn’t my intention. And I’ve been debating whether or not to put my thoughts out here on this forum. I expressed my concerns to my wife and she gave me the courage to do so because she said this place would be the proper venue for it. So, I guess there you go. And obviously, if it isn’t a soul prison we are all in, well, I at least had some fun mental gymnastics.
Love and Light,