For a long time I could not feel love or admiration for the One Infinite Creator after reading the Ra Materials, because the One is clearly okay with everything, including the blackest, most violent, most disturbing acts. I feel much more comfortable with my Higher Self, who while they might applaud me even on the service to self path, they are certainly applauding me on the service to others path, which is a much more direct route for me, as well as being the path I desire.
I am slowly digesting, processing these things.
One thing I like to remind myself is that while Ra might look at “our service to self friends” as valid and moving ever closer to the One, they also make it clear that their bias is towards the path of light. They often call service to others “the path that is not” because it is ever deeper into illusion of separation and further from the One. They also were saddened and dismayed when humans on earth took the gifts Ra offered and used them to strengthen and perpetuate power hierarchies and oppress the masses more and more. Ra withdrew in regret, feeling the karma they had taken on in their naive interference, and unsure how to resolve said karma. They waited for the right time and the right group to receive their effort at repair. Don, Carla, and Jim were this group.
Another thing I like to remind myself, though it perhaps is not made crystal clear in the Ra Materials, but it is elsewhere, is that those who choose the service to self path and then find early sixth density that they are not able to go any further on that path, but snap back like a rubber band to the path of light, have to experience ALL of the negative karma they created that others suffered because of them. Even if they were at the top of a huge galactic pyramid scheme, wearing white gloves and never getting their “hands dirty” so to speak, they are advanced enough to understand responsibility. They will have eons ahead of them of suffering being a victim of their own dastardly acts. They must balance their dark path.
This is the perspective Ra has as they look upon all of this drama, having already grown beyond it. It is understandable that they would have a bias towards the light.
There is also the principle that all experience that is taken on is experience that was willingly desired, even if part of that experience is forgetting that you are the one who desired it in the first place.
In honor of the Law of One, I call the service to self path “The Spicy Path.” I do this tongue in cheek, as humor is divine and lightens the darkness in ways that help us to cope. I jokingly say that just as I am not a fan of spicy food, it is not my preference to take the “Spicy Path.” But others, that is totally their cup of tea.
Remember, no one graduates on the dark path unless they really really really really know exactly what they are choosing for themselves. It is who they are. It is what they truly desire. Those who are already well on their way on the light path can’t really wrap their heads around wanting to be that way. Even Hitler was not self serving enough to graduate on The Spicy Path. But Himmler was. And now Himmler is a lowly “shipping clerk” for the dark side. He has a very long road ahead of him.
Also remember, the universe is teeming with loving beings who deeply respect your free will and will ONLY help if you ask. Help is always available. You can’t make vibrational leaps without the fuel to do so, because that is not how physics works, but you can take vibrational baby steps every single day towards light and paradise. The stronger your desire, the more you can “leap”. Intense suffering brings intense desire.