In this post I want to touch on a topic that is very important to me and worth thinking about.
In this channeling (Q’uo on Memory as a Feature of Creation - The High Altitude Receiving Center) Q’uo says:
We would now turn our attention to the manner in which the Creator’s relation to itself, such as to enable the continuity of Itself with Itself to be registered as a process of growth, development, deepening, or realizing Itself, can be conveyed into the creation which enables this realization to take place as in a mirror. The key is the sense in which there may be a retention for purposes of reflexive movement within the Creator, and the manner of the creation is such that the first moment of it is the sense in which the One Infinite Creator is infinitely dispersed into so vastly many different ones that the unity appears to be in question. And thus we have free will in this fractal way we have described.
The newly minted elements of the Creator, as we might call them, are thrust out so far from the Creator that the distance seems itself to be infinite, but we would suggest that this distance is best understood as a kind of psychic affair, to invoke the nearest analogy that we have available, for we are not here speaking of spatial distance so much as distance in the sense that
the Creator in the creature is unknown to Itself, unavailable to Itself, other than Itself. And in this otherness, in the very early stages, those stages that we have called first density, are, to one who did not know better, largely inert, largely bereft of anything that you could call consciousness, largely bereft of anything that you could call memory.
But it is here that we must make the first beginnings in understanding the way that something of the order of memory takes shape. For within the first density, we find that we have the coalescence of light in its first found form so random a coalescence that yields substantial matters;we have now planetary bodies, for example, and upon these planetary bodies, there begin to be processes at work, as the winds blow, the fires rage, the earth resides, and the waters ripple. And all of these processes produce over time, change, and the changes over time tend to mount one upon the other, so that the effect is a very slow, to be sure, but discernible process of reshaping the planetary conditions in such a fashion that at some point upon the planet life may indeed arise—that is to say, that which you recognize as life, for indeed the whole of the creation, in the broader sense, is living.But when organisms of first a minute and then a more and more complex nature begin to arise, you have the possibility of memory which is not merely registered in some type of geological record but is retained within the organism, and indeed the whole of second density with its organisms, primitive and more advanced, small and large, is characterized by processes in which bodies evolve to more and more complex forms on the basis of that which has gone before. Therefore, that which comes after plays off in a particular way that which has gone before, and it is in that fact alone that the possibility of complexification rests. Eventually, there come to be animal forms in which behaviors themselves are more and more complex, and more and more imbued with intelligence, awareness, variability of response. To some extent, the variability of response within organisms is highly stylized, for one can expect individuals of a certain species to behave in such a way that the parameters of that behavior are describable from an outside point of view, and they are said therefore to be the instinctive endowment of that species. But what that suggests is that a kind of species memory is at play, and the fact that evolution is possible at all means that that memory is indeed a living thing, even to the point that the instinctual endowment may be creatively played upon through individuals enjoying that particular endowment.
And thus, there do come about animals upon the surface of your planet which has been so long evolving that are capable of such variability in conduct and behavior that the factor of individual memory becomes essential to the process of the intelligence displayed in the variability of that conduct, so that it might be successful. And the more that factor of variability becomes central to the way the organism functions, the more it becomes possible that that organism will become self-conscious. And at that point the relation to the Creator is creatively embraced for the first time on an individual level. That which you know as your third density, that which you enjoy as we speak, is such a manifestation of a consciousness endowed with a memory, and in being so endowed, becomes responsible for the continuities of conduct and development of selfhood that that potential of individuated memory carries in train.
As far as I understand the words of Q’uo, after the Creator separated from himself a certain substance, within which, as a result of the interaction of light with light, planets were formed. Then, on these planets, life in its simplest forms began to form. I assume that even in these microorganisms there was initially a striving for growth, a striving for evolution, and I assume that such a striving for evolution is initially inherent in the properties of light because, in fact, planets and all subsequent life were formed from light. And I guess that this quality, this desire for growth and evolution, was put into the light by Infinite Creator from the very beginning of the process of very first separation. So, in microorganisms, there was a drive to move upwards, and for evolution to take place, there had to be some kind of foundation on which it all rested, so I suppose that species memory came first. As I understand it, it is something like DNA, when a living creature is given data, roughly speaking, that a cat should have a mustache on its face, four feet, data on the structure of its organs, and so on, then after a long evolution the rudiments of new individual memory appear, i.e., a cat can remember its owners, remember familiar smells, and so on. Individual memory begins to develop.
And I’m just trying to understand the very first moment when I first separated from the Infinite Creator and began my first density, i.e., I began to be in the material world.
I.e., there was a moment when I very first separated from Infinity.
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What made me separate the very first time I separated? It turns out that Creator separated me by force?
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Why did I separate to a certain place, why to this place in the universe, to this galaxy and not to some other galaxy? Who chooses this path?
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What made me realize I was separate? What made me realize that I am part of the Creator, part of Infinity?
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In what form was my “true self” when it first separated from the Infinite Creator?
What kind of memory did I have at that time, and was I able to have one at all?
I’m wondering what you think about this, how do you imagine your very first separation from the Infinite Creator? And in your opinion, who do you think determined your path?
