So, something I have been stuck on or hung up on for awhile is the need to know vs the seek to remember.
It seems like there is a need to know, which seems to me to be asking someone to tell you what is true vs the way it would come to one in meditation.
For example, I have wondered about the word confederation.
This word used to bring forth the image and thus feeling of association so, definition, to star trek.
But as I contemplated this, since it seemed to be confusing to me, I realized that there is much more to the way a concept is given from the Ra material, to the way the Q’uo material is given (and the decades in which they occur) in line with the pints of reference of understanding… of the ability to explain a thing by them in a way that we can relate to it and thus grasp it.
Confederation was and May still well be, the best way to explain a thing that is not quite conceivable. It’s all … the experience we are in is like learning to feed ourselves once as a toddler, which is what is put in front of us. And as we age we discover new foods, to prepare a meal for ourselves, various ways and combinations and also how it feels to our bodies we are in… then how to manage that and so on.
We are toddlers who know how to feed ourselves, in this density, and in this, to our … ability to conceive if concepts… of being able to describe or explain them… which a thing we have been trying to figure out for hundreds to thousands of years … but the more we try to confine a thing in or to a human being ness the more we remain puzzled and we also … stunt our awareness, or so it seems to me.
What I mean is … if a thing that was unlike all points of reference you have ever experienced, occurs before you, you don’t really notice the thing… you have no way to label it… it’s like, as a baby, (if you remove the energy /feeling aspect in this example given off by the thing) a baby has a bear come into its experience but there are no people around it to tell it of what it does or does not do. The baby will take note of it, but not much else. If an object is in a space with a baby it does not acknowledge… say, the blain wooden box in the room until someone else around it gives the baby a point of reference, an interaction that it exists, or it sees a person reaching for handles elsewhere so now it knows that there is a handle on that place that is there and then it notices the color is slightly different that room around it because that is like the shelf that the person the baby watches often uses for other items… it requires a teacher that a thing is, to so degree. Of course time and exploration, one’s senses and so on… are part of one’s dawning of awareness of self and likely to occur at so point… through experience of self.
All of these words to say… it confuses me. The language and the labels. That sometimes it seems as if the channeling of Ra or any given through the LL Research group … are like Bible study groups. Are like, treating these words as if there was not a language barrier that did and still does exist although has improved much as our experiences and awareness have increased much.
See, why I bring this up is exclusivity. And … ? Because all people who land here… in their own way are seekers. They are all in varying places on their own paths. And all are valid.
I’ve found myself guilty of this, too, at times. And so I say this not in judgement of … those who I perceive as such … but more of… it feels like … I don’t understand the pouring over the words or the details of other time spaces or… the … any time space that is not very near to our present experience of knowing oneself and thus other self and thus truth and One in all… how it matters so much. It hasn’t been that time-space was not ever other than illusion for the experience… from how it feels to me.
It happens often… so many people quote and site and try to manage each word … but it’s… isn’t that a distraction? Isn’t it take what resonates with oneself … for the greater good in love and light to know oneself and in this to be of service to others ?
I … it could be this is so how offensive or off topic. I just… it happens a lot.
So much air of authority in our social environments that many are left out.
So many great at memorizing and then they become doctors and have no concept of humanness and are not motivated healing. Blind to the human experience of each who seek to be well and understand themselves more fully so they may do the work of healing upon themselves as well. …
I’m fine if this little ramble is not … within guidelines. I’m new. I’ve been reluctant to come. So, I do come with … trepidation. And that does taint some my view point. It’s a lot to do with how much I desire to find others who see what I see, think or at least feel and grasp things similar to me but it has been a lot of people just … sort of … not feeling the same, not having the same awe and curiosity… and all that…
I appreciate all everyone does and all that are here, I say this in truth, I do feel this to be so, my gratitude to each who reads or even not but simply is…
I don’t even want to enter this, submit this… but… I’m going to make my self do it and release the attachment to the outcome. Because … that’s the experience I’m having:)