Your words are correct, my friend. This is always my intention: to surrender to God in all matters, not just some, and to live with love, freedom, and play.
However, we must always remember that we live among people, many of whom do not yet know how to apply the Law of One. Not only that, but many of them do not really know what love is or how to open their hearts to it. There are even those who try to harm others.
How can I say everything around me is a reflection of the Creator within me, then bury my head in the sand to escape the strong opposition that exists in this density?
I have learned the playfulness you ask of me after learning the wisdom found in the opposition and the distortions present on Earth and in people’s minds.
I do not prefer to speak only about positivity because positivity alone in these current circumstances is just an illusion, not real.
The more you hold onto positivity and encouragement only, and beautiful words, the more negativity tries to impose itself on you—not to harm you, but to teach you more and make you stronger in facing challenges.
For me, even though I currently consider myself a player and non-interactor and have left everything to God to act according to His will, it has been a long path full of bumps and tests.
God has often taught me how to become stronger and stronger when going through difficult circumstances, knowing how to deal with them and come out of them. I am not with those who only call for living by the Law of One through naive love without understanding the wisdom of what is happening on Earth.
I will not convince myself that everything is fine while pain surrounds people from all sides. I will not learn more about God’s wisdom if I do not explore all aspects.
I did not come to Earth except to live by the Law of One and love. But if it were as easy as you suggest, humanity would not need to live for millions of years in coming densities to learn how to serve others with love, light, wisdom, and the Law of One more.
I have to understand how to apply them here first—to solve the distortions created by humans and how to deal with them.
Surrender without understanding is not true surrender. Otherwise, we would have stayed in the Kingdom of Heaven and not incarnated with this thick veil that imposes many constraints we cannot unlock before understanding them and how they work.
Talking is easy, my friend, but application is not. Otherwise, if it were simple, you would find all people in a good state and very happy just by saying, “I give my will to God and surrender to Him completely,” and the world would suddenly become rosy.
It is a long path full of learning and teaching, and teaching and learning.
Just by accepting this experience and descending into this body, there was a readiness and understanding to learn from all the bumps accompanying the journey.
If I were to simply say that this path is beautiful, rosy, and comfortable—just be with God and do not be afraid—I would be lying to others and myself.
The truth is that the path tells you, and God tells you, “Be with Me in all your states, do not deny any of them, but be with Me always. Be with Me, and if you feel fear, accept it and do not run from it. Be with Me and feel whatever you want—I will not judge you.” And that is how you should be with people. What you accept in yourself, you will learn to accept in others. And what you accept in others, you will learn to accept in yourself.
Let everything pass through you as you observe and see how things are going. Learn from every feeling, every thought, and everything that happens in front of you, around you, and behind you.
God says to me, “You have eyes in all directions. You have eyes in the universe looking at the whole planet with love. If you do not love your fear, weakness, and inability, how will you know how I see you? If you do not learn to understand and love the opposition, how will you know how to apply the Law of One here?”
And loving these feelings that contradict love itself is not easy. You will face much resistance in your journey, and you must be ready to face it. This is a truth within this illusion, and it will remain a truth as long as you are embodied in this body and belong to the tribe called humanity.
Until you learn how to deeply overcome all the illusions surrounding you, you sometimes need to allow yourself to see the illusion as reality and immerse yourself in it to decipher its codes from within.
Thank you my brother , you helped me to more understanding for myself 
